S • M • I • L • E • S

You'd always love
To stare at my smiles
You were addicted
In capturing such moments
Because you'd always say
That that could be the last time
You'd see me smile
That you'd rather treasure
The looks from my eyes
For you wouldn't miss it for the world
You would cry
On my shoulders for hours
Just to make me feel
How much you yearn for me
And you would do anything
For me to stay a little more longer
Back then
You owned me
You owned my sight
As well as my smiles

But why did you let
The last moments of us
To make you see
Not my smiles
But tears in my eyes
Not the love you've became fond of
But of endless rage and regrets
How could you not sustain the love
That had always made me laugh
And instead replace it
With worries and pain
How could you accept
Series of doubts
In exchange of my long loving stares
How could you choose
To end everything
And forget how you loved my smiles

Time does heal
Distance does make us forget
Then you saw me
And I saw you
Staring at me
Admiring my smiles once more
And I knew
Now it's going to be different
You'll be able to see
My eyes again
And stare at me
For the longest of time
But you have to see it
From a far place
Finally, you'll be able to see
The glow in my face
But it is caused
By a different thing now
You'll see me fall in love again
But today,
It's not towards you
Not directed to you
I'll smile at you
And you're free to admire it
Because the moment
You wanted to get freed
I started smiling for me
And never for you
I've started smiling
And they've started
Not to become yours
Not anymore.